God's grace shows itself to me in many ways. Some are glorious and some are not. By the grace of God, for instance, I have enough to eat, a good place to live, money for my diabetes medications and meaningful work that provides many emotional, material and spiritual blessings. But just 0utside my office are children who go to sleep hungry, who wake up with nobody to say "good morning," and with only bleak prospects for having their basic needs met. This noon I drove to McDonalds for a late lunch and was heading back to the office to eat. At the stoplight a little boy approached my car, tapped on my window and held out a deformed hand to ask for money. He motioned to his stomach to indicate that he was hungry. In his eyes was a hunger that went beyond his need for something to eat to indicate a hopelessness at life in general. But he doesn't have the luxury of looking at his life reflectively. He was hungry, and was looking at the food that I had purchased at the drive through that was on the seat next to me, food that I could easily do without. I gave him a handful of fries and drove off. On other occasions I might have just shook my head and not given him anything. Nutritionists might say that he was better off with nothing than a greasy fry, I don't know. But as I drove away my mind came up with many questions that I have considered often in my 38 years in Cebu, questions that don't really have answers but weigh heavily on my heart on occasions such as this.
- Why does this little guy have nothing and I have everything? Is there a single thing about how I have lived my life that qualifies me for advantage? Has this little guy done anything wrong to deserve a withered arm and a hungry tummy?
- Why didn't I just give him my whole lunch instead of a few paltry fries? By suppertime I would be dining on a good meal and he would be hungry again. Likely, I just wanted him to go away from my car.
- What does he think about me and what I represent?
- If he ever does look to the future, does he have a shred of hope that things will get better for him? With little or no positive family or other adult influence, with no access to health care or decent education, and with daily exposure to the many dangers from living on the street, is there any chance whatsoever that he will? What will be different for him, his eventual children and theirs?
- What is life like without hope? Can I even begin to understand that?
The disparities of life in a country like the Philippines are hard to grasp. Living here provides graphic proof that God's grace has nothing to do with merit. Not a thing. That kid deserves a break much more than I ever do or will. All I can do, perhaps, is to think about why God called me to live much of my life here and not in the country of my birth. Some people think that, in choosing to live here, I forsook the luxuries of life for the difficulties of the third world. But I live in the lap of luxury here, too. I just have to pay an emotional price for doing so as I come face to face with people who struggle just to stay alive.
I've been dealing with these same questions for 38 years! At CSC we have been able to help lots of little guys like the one I saw today. We have taken in the hungry, the lame, the disfigured, the homeless. We have dispensed food, medicine, knowledge, even hope. But we aren't helping this little guy at all. Except for a fistfull of fries. Of course we can't help everyone, I know that. But that knowledge doesn't remove his image from my mind or, on the other hand, make his life one ounce better.
I pray for wisdom, to accept the things that I cannot change, to be an agent of positive change where I can, and to know the difference, even though knowing that difference does not provide emotional relief from the confrontations with hopelessness that are a part of life in a place like this. I guess the best way to accomplish the dictates of the above-cited Serenity Prayer is to focus on the things that I can change, not on what I cannot. On the tree, not the forest. But I'm very sure that there are things that I can change if I open my mind to them, to see people not as an inconvenience but an opportunity. Maybe I can use some of the incomprehensible advantages that have been bestowed on me to offer some measure of relief and, maybe, even hope to people like the little boy who I cannot get out of my head.
Love is a verb
Actions speak louder than words...
I see this adage lived out every day by our workers. They care for our kids in a way that goes above and beyond what is outlined in their job description. They do their job---whether it is preparing a meal, overseeing bathtime, homework time, changing diapers, or making sure our vehicles are safe and in good running order---with heart and dedication to the ministry of CSC. They love these kids and it shows!
How our Uncles love...
Taking care of our homes
Celebrating a special day
Playing with them
Holding them---even though it means you will get sticky in the process!
Praying over them
Helping them play safely
How our Aunties love...
Helping with homework
Meeting a need
Encouraging cooperative play
Laughing with them
Being one of our children's first teachers!
Providing one-on-one attention
And the list goes on....
I believe we learn how to love and how to be kind to others from how we are loved and treated by those around us.
It warms my heart every time I see one of our kids loving another one of our kids, but what else would you expect when they have such good teachers? :)
How our kids love each other...
We love because he first loved us." 1 John 4:19
Happy Birthday!
"Happy Birthday!" is something that we say a lot at CSC. We work hard to make each birthday a special occassion for each of our kids. Really, all our kids have of their own is their name and their birthday, most other things have been taken from them.
We have the big event on the exact date of their birthday....even if that means we have three different birthday parties in one week. The kids know exactly what to expect. They like to wear red on their birthday. Their birthday will be celebrated in their house, all the staff are invited and each of the kids get to invite two more people...usually one kid from each of the other two houses, but sometimes they invite their teachers from school. If we happen to have two birthdays on one day that just means the party doubles, we usually have it outside because all the kids from two houses are included. Most often the first thing that happens is the kids are presented with a printed copy of all the greetings that were posted on FaceBook for their Birthday - they especially love looking at each of the tiny FaceBook profile photos! They do read the notes as well. We always have a rousing (read LOUD) birthday song and lots of table banging (trust me - it goes with the song). Following that we all have to tell the birthday child "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" and expect a "Thankyou" in return. Then is time for a special prayer for the birthday child, the child gets to chose a staff person to pray for them. We are always certain to thank God for bringing this child to CSC and for each of the talents that we know this child has. Then...time to eat. The kids love to have chicken and spaghetti! Sometimes the menu varies (and that makes the staff happy.) After everyone has eaten all they want (and that usually does not include vegetables when they get to fill their own plates) it is time for Ice Cream and Birthday Cake, but first they have to have their picture taken with their specially ordered birthday cake. The birthday child is usually the first one done eating. The last big event of the evening is getting their gift! They are so excited to get their birthday gift...CSC kids are appreciative and happy with what they receive. It is a blessing to watch their face as each thing is pulled out of their bags...okay, clothes usually get tossed aside rather quickly, but they are happy to wear them the next day! Then it is time to pack everything back in the birthday bag and bring it upstairs to their bedrooms to find special places to keep each thing (usually that will be in their bed with them for a few nights at least). Yep, we love birthdays at CSC. Each and every one of them.
Recent School Activities
There are always lots of activities going on at the school. Conferences, morning meetings, and programs. It has been a very busy last few weeks. Here are some of the programs we've had lately!
Level A2 Morning Meeting:
Two weeks ago Level A2 presented a morning meeting about different types of weather! They did a cute skit in which a boy took pictures of the kids acting out all of the seasons. That was followed up with the students explaining several different types of weather. Then they danced to the song "Beautiful Day" before closing up the morning with a game. For the game, two kids had to form a house with their arms. A third child sat inside as the "baby". Whenever there was a storm, the houses fell apart and everyone had to run around to form a new house with a new baby. There was a bit of confusion during every "storm", but lots of laughter as well!
Science & Math Day:
Last Thursday, our school held our annual Science & Math Day. The program was split into two different parts. The first part was the math quiz bowl. The kids were all quite excited about it and many had asked their teachers in advance to PLEASE help them practice. Addition, subtraction, multiplication, division, number comparison, and fractions were just a few of the topics covered. They all did a great job and it was fun to see the teamwork and encouragement that went on within the teams! The second part of the program included presentations from each of the science classes. Group 2 shared about plants and how they grow! Group 3 explained potential & kinetic energy. Then they used a roller coaster to demonstrate those types of energy. Group 4 showed examples of energy transformation! After all of the science presentations, the kids were clapping and spontaneously yelled out, "Science rules!!" It's fun to see their love for science! The day ended with two math dances put on by our older kids! Here is a short video that we showed about group 4's energy creations. They had to create something that would move a Ping-Pong ball as far as possible!
Level B Morning Meeting:
Last Friday, Level B presented their morning meeting. It started off with the girls performing a fun dance to the song "Show Jesus" by Jamie Grace. Then they did a cute skit about camouflage. The rabbit kept running into things that were hidden in the grass, trees, and flowers! The program ended by acknowledging the March birthday celebrants!
Check out more pictures from these events!
Math Girls
I never loved math as a student, but every year my love for teaching math grows a little bit more. And this year my love for teaching math is at an all time high because of my hard working and motivated students! I have never had students who are so excited to not only know if they got it right or wrong, but WHY they got it right or wrong. Sometimes they interrogate me - in a good way - "Why, teacher Lindsay? Can you show me number 6 again?" It's like a teacher's dream come true.
Not only do they love to work on their assignments in class, they will gladly accept homework and even get excited about "extra challenge" assignments. They truly hunger for knowledge and academic challenge, and it's such a privilege to be their teacher.
They even sing songs about math!
I'm so proud of these girls. :)